Move Ins and Moving On

Yesterday was a pretty great day for me: I finished the final touches of cleaning on an apartment so people can move into that sometime this week and work can get started on the apartment they're moving out of. ... And I filled out my W4 so that I am now officially a member of the crew here at our lovely apartment complex.

It's really nice to know that I don't have to keep looking around for a job anymore. I have one. And a place to live. And I'm surrounded by loving people who like me for who I am and not what I believe or what I can do for them. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure that they enjoy the things I can do for them, but that's not contingent on our being friends.

Conditional friendship is not friendship at all. I guess that's a lesson I'm still learning.

I'm still having hard days. Sometimes the pain that bogs me down on the hard days seems heavier than the happiness that consumes me on the good days. But I haven't chopped off all my hair in frustration yet, so we'll see what happens next.